Postpartum Depression

My Postpartum Depression Experience

        

"On 25 Mar 2018  i had my first baby girl.  I had no idea of what i was getting myself into. I had to have an emergency C-Section. During my pregnancy, my  in-laws took good care of me. I used to read books and do lot of research, so that i would be prepared for my  pre and post delivery. Since our society is not much educated on this topic. I had never heard about postpartum depression, (PPD) also known as postnatal depression. My whole nine years i was expecting a baby boy, not that i m a gender biased. but don't know i wanted my first child to be a boy. As soon as doctor operated me and  said  it is a girl i was shocked for a second  but later i was so overwhelmed to see her. I kissed her on her cheeks. Later they shifted us to the ward. Everyone were happy. I struggled to breastfeed her initially, as i was dealing with all the physical pain. I was a mess. I felt incapable of carrying out the huge responsibility I was entrusted with. 

After five days of sleepless night at  the hospital, I took my baby home. I cud not go to my maternal home for some reason. Things got worse. I cried for no reason. My whole body use to pain, my back use to hurt a lot. Everyone told me this is usual after having Cesarean.  Daily i used to cry. i was badly missing my mom.  I needed an emotional support from my husband  but since he had his professional commitments he cud not be there with me 24 x7 . He tried to comfort me whenever he could, but nothing was working . Days passed my baby helped me in over coming my problems, I used to see her, her smile,  try making her videos, this helped me to certain extent.She soon turned one, i happened to see a vlog on YouTube, where i got to know whatever happened to me those days it was a depression that i was going through and it happen to almost every mother for some reason. There are many movies made on this. (i would recommend movie named  baby blues 2008). 

There is a lack of awareness about PPD in our society. The cause of PPD could be lack of social support, hormonal changes and high expectations etc . I don't want any moms to suffer like me, because if untreated this problem on time it could turn to be a worst nightmares. Awareness is the only solution to it.   Talk to your dear ones about this , this isn't your fault. Burst out your cries. You will feel  much better.